Sunday, September 25, 2011

Sea Maiden 1897 by Arthur Hacker


Art Blog: Thomas Cooper Gotch : The Message 1899


Pursuit of Beauty - Inspiration

At class today there was a beautiful old Ponytail who came up to me afterward and said that she was so glad that I was there. She had come to visit her daughter, who takes the class, and was brave enough to attempt it with her.

She did great and I was glad that I made the challenge a bit more comfortable for her.

I have made a discovery about my body - ridicule of childhood lead me to the destruction of youth.
My body has been too abused and disliked and has been "other" than me. Now my body IS mine.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Pursuit of Beauty Milestone

Today I was not the fattest one in class and I did better weight lifting reps than some of the thinner ponytails.

I am at a definite disadvantage doing my workout in this fat suit though, because the exercises I am doing for my thighs while standing on my toes only really affect my calves.

Tomorrow a massage!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Pursuit of Beauty, Full Range of Motion

Full range of motion sucks!
I went early today and got some pointers on "form" from one of the head Ponytails at my class.
It was hard and scary. My body hated it and it made the tears come.

I focused very intently on what I was doing, I never realized how long my body was or how far away from the ground my head is. I never realized how my feet looked when they were parallel or what bending my knees into a full seated stance felt like, really. I don't trust my body to do these things.
It was like starting from the beginning again.

Ricks says, "Have fun!" when I leave for class. I don't think it will ever be fun, but maybe I'll have "full range of motion" someday.